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About Chaz

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  • Birthday 12/19/1952

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    Salt Lake City, UT on occassion the rest of the time I am not really sure but , no matter, I always seem to return to here which at the moment is SLC.
  • Interests
    Reading, playing the piano, listening to great music of all kinds- that fairly new Beatles CD created for Cirque de Soleil. But I also love to listen to Bach, Mozart- his Requiem which ironically
    enough he wrote while dying( he could hear it faster than he could write it down!), Messeian-Quators de la fin de Temp especially, Debussey, Pucinni, Shoenburg, Adams, Janacek, Chopin- the Etudes esp., almost all chamber music and of course Beethoven who wrote nothing I do not like.

    Meditating, a scholar of the scriptures and English/American Literature combined with critical theory and archetype vis a vis Carl Jung,

    The mountains and all their splendor for the absolute serenity they own and the balancing of my life they freely give. I love hiking especially with may family. altough these are baby step walks now. Anything to do or play with my grand babies-7 and counting; the most recent a precious little girl named Isabelle but I shall call her Belle. But without doubt and best of all I love just being with my family and listening to three generations of sweet chatter.

    Finally and circumscribing all is my faith in Jesus Christ and His Gospel; His perfect way of succoring us and the tender mercies that flow freely and without reservation. in the midst of my enemies and afflictions He has anointed my head with oil and through suffering and loss he is teaching me the unending power of love. He is the rock without which I could not have endured these past ten years and all the tragedy, death and suffering that has so unrelentingly afflicted my family and myself.

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    English literature with minors in French, family history and religion. Plus a ferocious attempt to finish my PHD but only instead having just begun neing temporarily interrupted by 9 Stents, 25+ hospitalizations, 25 surgeries/angioplasties, HB, Diabetes, a wacko pituitary and by association Hashimoto's disease(thyroid) still uncontrolled, adrenals have become superfluous, permanent back injury(since I was 23) with the nerve damage in my right leg worsening-only a slight reflex extant and the L4 is deteriorating, slammed against the L5 causing the beginnings of loss feeling in hands and feet, and the piece de resistance: severe Fibromyalgia/CF requiring(yes you behaviorists requiring!) 3 narcotics (along with 21 other drugs) -one used as needed/break through pain which even with these I get sleep disturbing pain at night which wakes me up- usually it's a nasty neuralgia which moves around and makes want to crawl out of my skin. And I sleep intermittently 14-18 hours a day. Finally a BIG surprise I have depression and anxiety. Now some would say this is NOT my bio but is sure as hell feels like it sometimes.
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    I am probably a day late and a dollar short here but I have received a few of Gordon's letters in the past 2 or 3 months. So maybe he is mending well? Does anyone know more? I really like Gordon and have missed his letters- they make a great nostalgic keepsake.[/color] Gee the board has gotten fancy shmancy!! And I am certain who is responsible! It is good to be back. I have missed ya'll!
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    Denise in hospital

    WOW! Denise I am so sorry you are having such trouble. You are certainly in my prayers-they.re powerful! I am curious why they changed their minds and put in the pacemaker. The docs decided against putting in a morphine pump because of possible blood clots. Did they change your meds to lessen the possibility of clots? I have been away a long time so it is great to send my prayers your way. I have been really sick but I won't go into it here. This space is for you. God bless- Chaz
  3. Hello George and welcome here! I am an old timer started posting here 5 or 6 years ago. This a very good place. I know of Charles University's reputation. We think anything older than 100 here in the states is old! But having been to the oldest pub in Ireland( circa. 957 AD) I bow to an area of the world where Tesla and other great scientists have hailed from! I have 12 stents and 30 surgeries and over 45 hospitalizations in the last 7 years. Go go on your trip and don't have a worry in your head!!! My cardiologist is one of the best interventionists in the country- he teaches cardiologists from all over the U.S. I am now in stage four heart disease-quaintly put as "end stage". I am waiting for a heart transplant. I could drop any day but I have learned to treat each day as another gift from God despite all the pain I live with-Fybromyalgia/CF. But you have a right to be concerned but I would NOT let it ruin a vacation for me if I were in your shoes(which if they have felt a little tight lately it's because I am in there too! Pay it no attention!!!) So welcome again and I look forward to getting to know you! You are among the best!!
  4. Well after 12 stents(both kind) and 7 years of with 30 surgeries(angios) I does not seem that the drug eluding stents do any better. My cardio is also a researcher and he said that about a year after the drug coated stents were being used that studies showed no better results. In fact I seem to remember that the morbidity was even a little higher in the later. The diagonal is that tough one to get at with a stent. I was on the table for 4 hours when my doc finally got it in there. So I'd want a second opinion. I would thinkg stents should at least be talked about. Thus us the sage advice from "Ask Clovis!"
  5. Sorry I am such a sloth in not posting here since last June!!!! I have been hospitalized twice and had another nasty stress test and the last time I had another Angio- #30 guys!! In betweeen and all together and al around I have been also really beaten up by the Fybro-sleeping 24 hours sometimes- I didn't think that was even possible. I was in the resort just a couple of weeks ago and I had another doctor from my group of caridios. He feels I have had enough(7 yrs. de ya think!?!?!) and said I needed to consider a transplant(my heart not the brain!!! those of you who might be wondering! ) I am only beginning to realize what this means. While in the big house I met with the transplant team twice and now will meet with them or the lead cardiologist this week. IKKKKS! Still messing with the courts- I can't find the $ to pay my fees and I keep missing court dates to testify about my reasons. Then last night my mother's sister and a dear sweet aunt died at 87 in her sleep. I have not seen her in a few years and cried for my loss. I grew up with her and my cousins. My mom and she were very close as was all my family. She lives in Indiana just north of Laffayette( Perdue Univ.). I cannot go but she won't be there anyway! I know, though, that the reunion she had with her brothers, sister, parents and aunts and uncles was wonderful and LOUD (we are not usually quiet! ) Oh I want to stay in touch with all of you and I am sorry to have been such a slugg. I know it takes us all to keep on keeping on here to keep this place alive and I need to do my part-you have all been so wonderful to me. I will need you all in the coming days and months and year or better. I need to get reading and catch up here!!! My love to you all- Charles
  6. The bus system is great and we even have light-rail. BUTTTT you have to be able to walk. And with that the ER would need to put in a revolving door for me each time I walked. IF I can get my moto chair working Then I could be a little more mobile. All the buses have chair lifts and so does the light-rail. I think I need to get that fixed! BTW holiday news- I finally put down my Christmas tree!! Oh do I need a maid!?!?!? You know- petite, small,white, lacy apron over a short black dress and a lovely, almost a whisper of a French accent spoken oh so softly.I don't care if she can call the hogs in when she is at home but in my fantasy she WHISPERS- oh sorry shhhhh! MAN! I have been divorced and alone waaaay too long!!
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    Well it wasn't the ICU this time but it was just as fun. The gave me that radioactive stress test and the after affects about killed me- like having an MI. And until that stuff gets out of my body it really makes me sick and-what else?- my fibro kicks in to high gear!! Big news was nothing has changed- my left side is still slowly closing up and there is not anything they can do except for meds until I start having congestive heart failure. That could be when the count down begins for a new heart and that's when I need to decide I want to sign a DNR and let nature takes it's course. But oh on Friday night they had their potatoe baked fresh halibut and it is sooooo delicious!! However it was not worth another trip to the ER and my state room!!! So gang- sorry to be away so long but I have just felt so lousy that even typing was difficult. Still getting over losing Seamus but I decided just this last week that if it were like loosing one of my kids that would mean that if it really was one of my kids= would I get rid of the other four. And so even though the money should be going a thousand other places I am picking up my new 10 week old cocker that is the same coloring of Seamus- buff with roan or copper markings and spots. I really am excited but I am not yet sure what to name him. I think I will wait till he is actually here and I learn his personality. Well, goodnight! And don't give up on me! I am not courting any other heart discussion group-AH!- what a heresy! I have missed you guys!
  8. Hey I got an email from HB linked to this discussion. I have a 93 year old aunt that still drives!!!! And she lives in Illinois( DONOT say the S !)- there, I am glad I got that out of my system. In Utah we have some oversite. There is a form that my 2 docs have to sign yearly. But I never know it because SWMBO kept throwing out my mail! Nice huh?!?! So I was pulled over recently and found out that my DL is suspended because I haven't been sending in these forms!. That earned me a nice fat fine and I could have had my car impounded. But I told the young officer my story and he let me off on that part. Oh the joys!! But I think if the tell you not to drive because of meds or impairment and you do drive it is just like an juiced up alcoholic driving around. You could KILL someone and it has happened. I am really pushing my luck though because I am still driving and my DL is still suspended because because I haven't paid another fine of 60.00 to reinstate my license and that could land me in jail. But what's an ole' fart supposed to do when he has to go to the docs( I am quintupletly blessed with my 5 docs) and the RX and the grocery?( read back and you will find this really is a question!) OH! for a chauffeur!!!
  9. hey gang I am sorry to be so pocky(sp?) but I have just been in emotional and physical overload from all that has happened. Yes I am home- came home on June first. And Irneo you have a good memory- this is the final crap I have had to put up with. Disregard the fact that I believed I was not violating any protective order- hell she wasn't even home either time. the city court judge gave me the 60 days for driving past my house!!!!! And the Utah District court judge( a higher court) gave me 0 yes 0 say it again 0 time in jail!!!! If there was any good feelings left in me for Rhonda they have evaporated!! Both times she got up in court and was allowed to anything she wished and she did!!! She said I repeatedly beat her until we separated and she got the protective order. She thought I was going to kill her and even said she barricaded herself in her room at night.But the best one was that I drank alcohol and would get drunk and I used illegal drugs!!! The she mocked me sitting in my wheel chair with oxygen and accused me of faking it!! I am so done with her. But the sentencing were telling. The district court judge had a pre-sentencing report done where I was interviewed by a probation person and then gave her report to my attorney and the judge. I also gave that report to city judge. I ended up spending only 48 days in jail because I got merits for good behavior!! There!! I am exonerated! Interestingly my neighbor works at home depot and helped my wife today. She was picking up fencing material. My neighbor said she the the meanest witch ( spelled with a B by my neighbor!) she had ever had to help. When she saw my ex's last name she said she almost asked if she was my ex. She was wise. Her life could have been seriously in jeopardy had she revealed she knew me!! Thanks for all your kind words everyone! I am sorry I am slow to post. It's not that I don't care about all of you- I do. But I feel like I have lost a child. I shall never find a dog like Seamus. I am sorry for the heat ache others are going through. It is just that I am too blown apart right now and I am still finding all the pieces. God bless to everyone. I shall be around again as I recover. Pepe dite adieu.
  10. Hey Gang I have not left you!!! no no never!!! But I have bween in the hospital, aqcute care wing of the Salt Lake County JAIL!!! My wife filed a complaint last year regarding a violation of her almost 7 year old protective order that MY lawyer said only lasted a year. So much for Liars uh lawyers!! I had 2 MI's while there and was in the ICU of a real hospital for 2 days. I just ggot out yesterday. Hey I had my own room, food was served to me in my room( through a hole in a very BIG metal door and my mds were brought to me by a nurse 4 times a day. O h yes- the protective order violation! I drove past our house on night while she wasn't there and she found out!! A second violation was when I went in search of my son fearing he might have OD'd. That crime was handled in the State court. The first in South Jordan City justice court- my home town. On the first I was given 60 dasy in jail- for daring to drive past my own home!!! We have since the divorce finalized 3 years ago been dropping kids of at each other's place regularly. Oh and the guy ahead of me was given 10 days for a DUI! I found out later from a constable that this judge is considered a bad judge- REALLY!!!! At the second hearing for which I missed 4 times because I had been in the hospital, my wife stood and testified I had beat her regularly, that I drank and took illegal drugs and then she mocked me re: my health( I was in a wheel chair and had oxygen- couldn't walk the very long halls in the jail and the court house. And that judge gave me ) jail time and a small fine. Did he believe my wife? De ya thunk?!?! Finally to make all this time REALLY special Seamus ran away from my daughters house over a month ago and they repeatedly checked all the animal shelters. I cried like a baby- i'm still crying. Death right now would be a blessed event and NO I am not suicidal just very very depressed and sick. Jan I should have walked to get to you even last year and then sort of became a permanent house guest!!! LOL :scratchchin: what do ya think! I must be going to Heaven when I leave here- I have already been through hell!!! Well enough whining- boy I wish I did drink!!!!![/font][/size][/color]
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    TT's husband Tim

    Oh TT I am so very sorry for all that has been going on. Just one of those events seems enough! My loving sympathy and prayers go out to your and your husband and family. There is a great book written by Elizabeth Kubler-Ross on grief and grieving- maybe you have heard of it. She devoted her like as a psychologist to the study of death and and grieving. Her immense contribution has become the gold standard for many to follow and psuh forward to even greater meaning. I hope you and your husband will give yourself that time. Ya I know I have been away again. Your rainstorms and flooding have been our major winter storms out here for the past month. The mountains have received over 6 feet of snow in that time. And most days I felt like I was under it! I was in the hospital(AGAIN!) last week. I will try to fill in at another posting. This is TT's time and my heart is so very sad for you! May angels watch over you during this meaningful and important time in your lives. Pepe weeps for you.....[font/][color/][size/]
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    need advice

    (Hey Guys!!! Who is this joker that keeps leaving these non sequiter postings of considerable length?? The first one was rather interesting but this one behind me is a LEETLE strange. Oh well I guess he/she is n the right place IF they really are strange!!! ) Welcome Lacey you are in a very good place but please remember we are not doctors. We are a very serious around here and joking is not permitted except between 2am and 4am GMT!!! So beware: you have entered the tachy zone. From my own experience I get what they call arrythmias which will last for a few minutes at best and may repeat but never last long. When you first get them it can be a little disconcerting. Only when they become a daily thing and are repetative( I said that already didn't I? ) do you need to worry. Which is why they had you wear that monitor. I had a sweet older lady next to me. During one of my many heart attacks I went tachy- now when that happens it is serious. They rushed me to the closest hospital and stabilized me- that is doc-speak meaning the patient is likely not to croak on my shift or then I would have to fill out ALL that paperwork and go through one of those hospital board of reviews because I died which is contrary to policy in most hospitals!!!! I was handed off to the next doc like a hot potato ( ME not the doc) and rushed to surgery and a a glorious time for four hours taking all those nice happy drugs. I was so loopy after that long that when my family came to my room they toook advantage of me and the only thing I ca really remember is al lot of LOUD laughing. It has been almost six years and they still smirk knowingly when they brush by the topic. Should that begin though( dying that is) I have one doc that tells me whilst I am throwing an embolism (blood clot), he says says he: Dont go near the light!!!! Like who is thinking of light bulbs at a time like that!! We are still working on that most delicate of procedures- the doc/patient relationship as you might have surmised!!!! Thinks he is Patch Adams or something! BUT beta blockers are VERY powerful drugs and can have serious side effects-not as serious as death but then some docs never go near the light but should!!! Seriously- you are right to question why you are getting such a serious drug after only one episode unless I miss read that and this is a repetitive thing. But even when I am in the hospital I ask the nurse to tell me each drug as she is giving me the dose. I have caught a wrong drug more than once and stopped it from turning me into a firefly- that is someone with that "light" stuck to their buttox which almost no one goes near except my neighbors dog. And besides this is not usually a place where proctologists are mentioned in polite company. Don't work too hard on this last ranting I have been known to offer TMI. SO- know(pronounced with the sibilant "K" hence kuh-noe) you have had to waid through my coral full of kuka ( actually a word ya know) I think you are very wise to question taking beta blockers without a very good medical reason. I mean I am from the '60's where they cyphoned antibiotics down our throats by the litre full and thought nothing of it!! They were partially right- there was nothing to it. Most colds are viral and antibiotics are for bacteriAAAAAA ( sorry slipt into my falsetto for a moment) . And that is why today we have flesh eating bacteria they can't always stop and by then you wished they hadn't stopped) Now I take beta blockers but it doesn't bother them I'm dying any way. Well I better go lest you think I am the nut case and not the person preceding this post who has begun to gibber but have no care my real problem is post prandial!!!! WELCOME Lacey!!!!! We have great fun here!! A warm welcome- Charles, Pepe, Chaz..................
  13. AWWWWW he is a Keeper Patoola!!! But a great grandson!!?!?! What(!) are you 110?!?!?! geez you hold your age well!!! AWWHHH just kidding- I'd say 99 tops! BIG congratulations!!![/color][/size][/font]
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    Thanks everyone! I am actually feeling better! Don't know what did it but I am HAPPY! My DIL is having it pretty rough. My Son couldn't get to her until Sunday although they talked of course. She had to have a D&C- at least I think that's what ti was. She was hemorrhaging because the placenta tore away or maybe it was the umbilical cord ripped away- ya that was it. So the baby had no chance. She was still in the hospital as of Sunday. Pretty rough- she went through a complete delivery. But she is mending now and her husband is with her- makes a good time for some deeper bonding and that is positive. Hey I don't get email notices anymore- how can I fix that? I elieve I have it turned on at My Controls. Now if I can only get my doc to renew my clonopin - shaking like a palsied prerson!! Ya the TV thing is nice- this is one of the top cardio hospitals and teaching centers in the nation so I guess we are spoiled with that! The cath surgery is pretty cool too with four large flat screen monitors in array aand the ex ray arm is all streamlined patterened right after that alien ship that landed at the heliport............ (ooops was I supposed to be talking about that?!?! Well they are always watching so I guess I will wait and see if they leave this posting alone. Let's just keep this to ourselves OK gang?!?!?! )
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    Boy the weather outside is howling!!! Number 28 and counting..... spent Thanksgiving until Sat in the ICU. An angiogram was done- just more blockage that can't be fixed!!! At least the new ICU is much nicer- we could have all fit into my room- FULL size!!! AND I had a wide screen TV with mostly good food. They had me on a heparin drip most of the time. I think that may have been what helped. I am feeling better but I am still grumpy, achy and sore in the groin- OH JOY!!!! My pretrial court date keeps getting put off- gotta be well enough to go!!! The good news is my attorney said the DA will plea down to a class B misdemeanor which is good- means no criminal record and a smaller fine and I think jail time served only. Big relief!! By daughter-in--law miscarried Thanksgiving morning early as she began the drive from home to here. Fortunately she didn't get far from home but she i still in the hospital. Ian couldn't get to her because of bad weather both Thursday and Friday- BIIIGGG summit between here and there( tops at about 9000 ft- and then he had to work the past 2 days here. He went home tonight. I think he is going to do the Air Force after all since they stayed married and are doing very well with their counselor. HEY! Pray I get to stay home for Christmas would ya please!?!?!? I am almost home bound now and the bod is getting worse and I am getting CRANKIER!!!!! Goodnight!
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